Wanderlust pt. 3

I'm so used to travel at least once a month, just to go home.
And now, I'm stuck in one place. 

It's driving me crazy. Still not used to it, still trying to figure out how I'm gonna fit everything into a suitcase, and still looking at tickets every other day. I'm restless, filled with wanderlust and seeking a new adventure. Not prepared for life as an adult. Need to travel, to see new things, to visit new places. 

It's such a weird feeling, because I feel at home, but a part of me seeks something new. Something exciting. I found this list of things I want to do, and even though I have no idea how to afford it... seriously people - the need to live out of my suitcase is crazy! It's on my mind half the day, and I just can't shake the feeling that I need to do it. Now!

Maybe I can put my boyfriend in a suitcase and just book the tickets... 

The magic thing about home

And just like that it had all come to an end. 

I left Lillehammer yesterday at 10, got to Trondheim at 14.45, and left for Bodø at 23.40. Will be home in an hour. 

I don't think I've quite realized that I'm actually leaving. Been so focused on getting home, that I forgot what I'm leaving behind. A wonderful job, amazing friends, and my home for the past four years. 

Yesterday was tons of mixed feelings. On one hand I was so exhausted from working and not sleeping, on the other I was so ready to leave that my body felt like it had slept for years. Saying goodbye was hard, but meeting an old friend was just so much fun. I wonder when it will hit me, the fact that I'm not going back. It's a one-way ticket. 

But the one-way ticket brings so many opportunities, and so many new adventures. 

I'm home. 

Leaving

After spending four fantastic days in Bodø, I'm back in Lillehammer.

Each time I get on the plane there's a mix of feelings. And I'm sorry to keep going on and on about this, but it's such a weird feeling. It's something I've never experienced before, exept for when I left Dunedin.

It's a mix between happy, sad, excited, frustrated, relieved and angry. 

I'm happy for the time I got to spent at home, but sad that I couldn't stay longer. Excited for the things that I'll be doing here (Lillehammer), but frustrated that I can't do it at home. Relieved that things at home are still the same, and angry that I have to leave them. 

It simply breaks my heart each time I have to leave, and yet; it fills me with joy. 

The best thing about being back to Lillehammer is getting back to my relationship. It's been going on for four years, and I'm just starting to realize how special it is. My bed and I are very happy, and still very much in love, thank you for asking. 

Wanderlust pt. 2

So I read this amazing blogpost about a week ago, called don't date a girl who travels. It made all my wishes for travel come back, and it also made me realize that I'm far from ready to settle down just yet. There's so many places to see, people to meet and things to do! 

As I've said before - there are countries I want to see before I get a house, kids and all that normal stuff.. But there's also so many things I want to do! Until 2012 I wanted to go skydiving and bungyjumping. I did both in one day (can't say I would recomend that, you won't get any sleep after that). I also wanted to travel all by myself, and I did. I still want to go somewhere and just be my own company, and make friends from across the world, but I also want to bring some of my best friends across the world and let them see all the wonders with me. 

And don't get me wrong, I love my friends to the end of the world, but some of them are not cut out for travel. One friend said to me - "I really want to go to "syden" (anywhere with sun and a beach), to see some cultural stuff". And I'm looking at her, thinking to myself - no, you want to get a tan. I want to go to Brazil and see the carnival, or to go back to Australia to dive with great whites. Anything that will get my adrenalin pumping, that will drive me a tiny bit craycray, or anywhere that I can learn something. 

And this is why that blogpost hit me. 

I'll always want to see more, never want to settle down, and I'll always be selfish when it comes to travel and adventure.

"So never date a girl who travels unless you can keep up with her. And if you unintentionally fall in love with one, don't you dare keep her. Let her go."